The summer before my husband, Steve, and I moved to the Vineyard, I asked a young shopkeeper what it was like to live here in the deep winter.
The summer before my husband, Steve, and I moved to the Vineyard, I asked a young shopkeeper what it was like to live here in the deep winter. I imagined starless nights, wet boots and a merciless wind —all of which were imagined correctly with a few unimagined ones thrown in.
She told me winter on the Vineyard was her favorite time, but you needed a project. After three winters here, I’ve settled into the Vineyard’s rhythms, moods and its irreverence for predictability. I know what’s coming, sort of. Until the holidays are over, I’m merrily bustling, stringing lights and mulling things like cider and thoughts. I have places to be, greens to gather, winter berries to arrange. There is an energy to my outings, a to-do list sparkly as glitter, and stridently purposeful. And I get to do them in a New England village with a steeple.
In January, the serious business of settling in for the long haul of reinforced undergarments begins. It’s time to hunker down, stop with the frivolities and get back to basics. After the bustle, and the inevitable let down of the holidays, I long to simmer, like a Tuscan soup with a Parmesan rind in the broth. There’s a richness to the dark, quiet days, living in the scarcity of light that surprises me wherever it shows up.
I’ve learned to love the intermittent payoff of nature’s snow flurries or rays of sun cutting through bare-limbed woods. In winter, the ferries to and from the Vineyard are tempestuous, seemingly cutting us off from the rest of the world. The isolation is palpable and freeing, there are fewer distractions, more introspection.
And yet, although introspection is a state I love to visit, it can be hard to live there. And so I turn outward, to an ongoing winter project: me. January is perfect for this, as it both welcomes the New Year and my birthday.
My project used to be grandiose — so grandiose that I was too overwhelmed to begin. Now I am learning to forgo the grand gesture and pick up a broom. There’s always something about me that needs sweeping up.
My resolutions tend to the small and doable: savor a moment, daily kindnesses and letting go. Don’t try to save the world, instead focus on the person behind you in line at Stop & Shop.
I aspire to root in the now, a daunting task for someone who frets about tomorrows, weather patterns and my grown children’s creative career choices. I sit in front of a fire long before bed and watch the flames, listening to the snaps and pops, like a meditation, keeping me present. If I watch it burn long enough, my soul quiets.
I gravitate to stillness, puttering around in the kitchen, roasting a chicken or writing a note.
I grow fond of the unadorned and learn to forgive myself without the frills. The project of me used to be about external things — be it pounds, publications or some form of showboatiness. Now it seems more like a shedding of outworn hurts and ideas. I want to take this distilled version of myself with me through the rest of my years. Maybe that’s called acceptance — to recognize who you are without the armor on.
I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, resting, repairing and noticing. And yet, like a poem, my winter project is invariably left unfinished. As the winter waxes and wanes, I put on my wet boots, venture into the brisk winds and begrudgingly trudge towards the light.
Robyn Goodwin lives in Vineyard Haven.

Comments
So beautifully written. I
Pieta Wijnand Leesburg, VASo beautifully written. I can imagine being at the Vineyard during this peaceful time, enjoying the quiet days.
Beautiful, Robbie❤️
Corrine VABeautiful, Robbie❤️
You are so loved just the way
Elizabeth NYYou are so loved just the way you are - no sweeping up necessary! You are the most really and genuine person I am both lucky and thankful to know. ❤️
Beautiful!
Myrna Marrero-Bradley Hume, VABeautiful!
Lovely, as always. Needed
Laura Rose Vineyard HavenLovely, as always. Needed that.
Robyn, Your musings are a
Amy Upton West TisburyRobyn, Your musings are a balm to my troubled spirit and solace for the long game of the soul. Thank you 100 times over.
Loved the meditative voice of
Lisa Cupolo Orange, CaLoved the meditative voice of this essay. So beautiful. Acceptance and love are the best resolutions. Thanks for the reminder, dear Robbie
Beautiful! Keep on living
Amanda EdgartownBeautiful! Keep on living that life, unedited, we love all of it
Robyn, I love this and I miss
Martha Wilson Manassas vaRobyn, I love this and I miss you!!!
We tend to travel to the
Lawrence N Margate, N.J.We tend to travel to the Vineyard for a few days in late fall...
Quiet, Peaceful..But not too quiet!
Our summer visits are a thing of the past...far too hectic.
But a little time in winter sounds like the perfect way to put the brakes on...and as you put so well...a time to quiet the soul.
Thank you!
I can smell that soup
Ethan Wright RichmondI can smell that soup simmering from here! By attending to ourselves and our immediate community, we build a practice of sustainable empathetic reciprocity.
Oh, I did savor this
David Daniels WESTPORTOh, I did savor this wonderful piece. Thank you... and Happy January
Beautiful and flowing! Thank
holly waymanBeautiful and flowing! Thank you for sharing your gift!
Thank you for this beautiful
Elizabeth Quinson Suffern NY/ Oak BluffsThank you for this beautiful essay. Just what I needed.
What a beautiful article. It
Barbara Kassel West tisburyWhat a beautiful article. It speaks to me during this time in my life. Thank you for writing it.
Your words renew.. Thank you.
Harry Seymour Oak BluffsYour words renew.. Thank you.
As usual, you bring me back
Shawna Rose Lima Vineyard HavenAs usual, you bring me back to the basics…. You hit this right where it needed to hit! ❤️❤️❤️
I have always loved January
Doreen Anderson Oak BluffsI have always loved January on the Vineyard and your words explain why. Thank you for this essay… so healing and peaceful
Wow! How incredibly moving
Alice Karpel Baltimore, MDWow! How incredibly moving and ever-so-beautiful. You enable me hear that small voice inside. What a gift!
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