In late February I was committed to McLean psychiatric hospital for two weeks.
In late February I was committed to McLean psychiatric hospital for two weeks. During the stay I began to put the pieces of a fractured psyche back together with the help of a stellar staff — psychiatrists, nurses, social workers and mental health aides.
It wasn’t unpleasant — the daily workshops on cognitive strategies were outstanding and I made friendships with fellow patients from diverse backgrounds. At the same time, it was challenging and required all of my mental energy to make progress. My physician diagnosed me with MDD (Major Depressive Disorder), a condition I’d been grappling with since my first episode at age 19.
Several strokes of luck worked in my favor. First, my doctor was at the top of his profession and pinpointed a medication that snapped the depression within 24 hours (most require four to six weeks to kick in, if they work at all). Second, I ended up at McLean, the number one-rated psychiatric hospital in America. Based on my experience, it earns its reputation.
Finally, I attended at the same time as a wonderful cohort of patients: a kind, funny group who made it easy to let your guard down and be vulnerable.
The day I was admitted I made two promises: that I would tell the truth about my condition and say yes to every therapeutic opportunity. This decision saved my life.
McLean wouldn’t release me until I’d put together a coherent plan for after-care. This included emergency strategies in case the suicidal ideation returned, as well as ongoing medication monitoring and psychotherapy. Part of the plan was informal social support.
I asked my friends Kyle and Mark if they would be willing to meet with me separately once a week for informal check-ins. I didn’t choose them by accident. Both had been at McLean or its equivalent in the past and knew the journey of recovery well.
Mental health is a team sport. My own progress at McLean didn’t pick up steam until I began helping other patients. I spent my first 48 hours in tears, convinced I wasn’t going to make it and would be dead within a month. By the end of the first week I was back on my feet and able to help new patients experiencing the same vulnerability. My recovery after discharge was supported by the kindness and friendship of others.
Depression thrives in isolation. Empathetic friends are the sunshine that dispels the shadows and accelerates healing.
The brain is an incredibly complex and delicate organ; mental illness is both common and natural. What’s unnatural is our society’s denial and stigmatization of it. It’s as cruel as it is unscientific and perpetuates unnecessary suffering.
Thanks to my treatment at McLean I’m enjoying a degree of health and happiness inconceivable in the months leading to my hospitalization. If anyone is curious about psychiatric hospitalization and mental health issues, talk to me. Open conversation is how we’re going to break down the walls of stigmatization.
We’re all in this together.
Julian Wise lives in West Tisbury.

Comments
Julian, Thank you for sharing
Pia Gundersen EdgartownJulian, Thank you for sharing your experience. You are right; we are all in this together.
Congratulations on your
R Scott Patterson EdgartownCongratulations on your continued recovery and telling your story publicly. It could literally save someone’s life.
Thank you for writing this,
Gabrielle West tisburyThank you for writing this, not many realize how delicate brain health is, and how we are all vulnerable...your voice helps. Everyone could do a little to be sensitive to those around them as you never know what they may be going through.
“Mental health is a team
Geoghan Coogan Tisbury“Mental health is a team sport.” What a spot on statement. The more our eyes are open to this issue, the more
Positive life becomes. Wishing you the best Julian.
Kudos to you Julian for your
Joyce Oak BluffsKudos to you Julian for your bravery and honesty. Thank you. Best wishes for your extended recovery.
Thank you for sharing your
John McCauley ChappyThank you for sharing your story. Your wisdom is greatly appreciated and is so helpful in recognizing this at times in ourselves and in those around us — and to realize we can all do more to find help and to help others. Congrats on your journey and continued encouragement. Thank you!
Julian - this is splendid in
John Abrams West TisburyJulian - this is splendid in so many ways. Thanks for showing how even the worst experiences imaginable can, if handled well, lead to recovery and fulfillment. Your candid sharing has the potential to help so many - true generosity of the first order. Best regards as you continue to follow your path.
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Julian,
Alison L Roche OBJulian,
Thank you for sharing your story and being so open and vulnerable. I too have suffered from depression and it is a very scary dark place where it seems impossible to see the light. I am sure your story will help others to seek the help they need. I am so happy that you can now appreciate your worth in the world.
Thank you for sharing your
Thomas Bender Dresser oak bluffsThank you for sharing your story, Julian.
Honesty and openness are your hallmarks.
We're so proud to call you a friend.
Your experience is the same
WV OhioYour experience is the same as my family member who recently spent 2 weeks at the Lindner Center of Hope. Sounds like the same format and program exactly. We can not believe the transformative healing that took place in those few weeks. You are exactly right when you say "mental illness is natural". And just like other illnesses, people get sick, and then they get better. Stigma happens from lack of knowledge. Ignorance is an illness in itself.
Thanks for writing this
Brian EdgartownThanks for writing this important piece.
I’m glad we didn’t lose you,
Harriet WTI’m glad we didn’t lose you, Julian. You are an integral part of our Vineyard fabric! Call anytime you need someone to listen. Any time.
thanks Julian for taking the
trip barnes vhthanks Julian for taking the bull by its horns-good work-there is no magic bullet-the share was good for me and a lot of people....
Thank you for being
Gina Patti OAK BLUFFSThank you for being courageous enough to share your experience. It is so important for us to work together, support each other and break down mental health stigmas. NAMI is a helpful national and local group as well. Wishing you the best in your recovery and rediscovery.
Thank you so much for sharing
Pat Tyra Edgartown and Dania Beach, FLThank you so much for sharing as may help others hopefully. Years ago I worked inpatient, outpatient and at the school of nursing there. How fortunate that you were there and are doing so well. Keep it going.
Thank you for your
Victor Capoccia Vineyard HavenThank you for your willingness to share your experience. Your experience and insights are life savers for others. No question Mclean is a great hospital, and important to note that Mclean may not always be accessible to all; and that attention from primary care and other mental health professionals, plus the connecting resolutions that you describe will also change and save lives.
Wishing you well Julian.
Thomas Bena ChilmarkWishing you well Julian. Thank you for being brave enough to share.
Your sharing of your journey
Joanne Lambert Oak BluffsYour sharing of your journey in such an honest way is a gift to us all. And you, Julian, are a gift to us all. Love from OB.
Julian, thank you for so
Elizabeth Barnes ChappaquiddickJulian, thank you for so brilliantly sharing this. We all have so much to learn from each other as we navigate our own private and public challenges. We are all in this together and I am so happy we are in this with you.
Julian Im so happy to hear
Cooky ChilmarkJulian Im so happy to hear that you are doing well & so proud of all of the hard work you did to make this positive outcome happen! Your honesty & bravery are refreshing & hopefully will inspire others. Sending you lots of love.
Thank you for this. It is a
Jack Harris Hamden, CTThank you for this. It is a powerful piece. I'm grateful to you for writing it.
Send this to Carson Daily on
Patricia VanVoorhis N. BenningtonSend this to Carson Daily on the Today Show…he is a champion for mental health…he seeks out resources for himself and others.
Thank you Julian for being
Amy Vineyard HavenThank you Julian for being willing to share your experience. This is everything. I am so happy you are still on this earth with us. You are an awesome human!
Thank you for sharing your
Darcy Conlin ScituateThank you for sharing your story.
Julian, to say that I am
Pat Kelley North Falmouth, MaJulian, to say that I am proud of you is an understatement! I wish you well in your journey. Thank you for being courageous, honest and up front. You not only have saved your life, but quite possibly, many others. God Bless you❤️
I am so glad you are well now
Stacen KeatingI am so glad you are well now, Julian. You are needed in this world and loved - thank you for this service of telling your personal journey so articulately. Sharing and caring for one another saves lives.
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